Commonwealth Essay(Draft)
"You have to have a dream or you will go nowhere." I read this from a magazine i bought to kill off time as i was lying in my bed after my appointment was cancelled by a sudden heavy rain. I wondered to myself if i had my own dream at all. This thought led me to a chain of thoughts and questions about the kind of life i was leading and if there was anything meaningful i was doing or anything i have achieved at all.
That caused a spark to my start on my research about what kind of dream i should have. So i began my so-called research by first asking my parents about what dreams they had when they were young and i found out quite a deal about the another side of my parents i did not know. I actually found out that my father wanted to be a politician and nearly succeded but had a major setback when his family had a financial difficulty due to the abrupt failure of his father's business. On the other hand, my mother's family did not have a normal life since young due to the lack of money in their family and making the situtation worse they had 8children and a very irresponsible father, therefore my mother's only dream was to let all her siblings live well and that they wont have to suffer any more. After our long-winded conversation, i concluded that for my dream to come true and to even have one in the first place, i had to have a suitable environment for me to realise my dream. After thinking for long i concluded that my environment is not too bad. So i went to my second stage of my research.
What kind of dream shall i have? Again i went to ask my parents but they gave me a very simple answer. The thing i wants to do. So i spent near 3 hours lying in my bed about i wants to do but the answer simply did not come. Then i went to ask a few of my closer friends who were baffled with my sudden question and they too found out that they had no dream or even thought about it. Then i found out that one of my friends had always wanted to be a cook and i was surprised and i went on to ask him why he chose that dream. He told me that his passion of cooking started when he attended home econ lessons, he also said that he liked cooking because when other people ate his food and when he sees good reaction on ther person's face he would feel proud and that led him to his dream. So then came my third stage of my research. Have i had any feelings or situations similiar to my friend?
I searched every corner of my brains and finally i found it. It was very recent, it all started when i joined concert band in Victoria school. After i managed to settle in my CCA i found the job of a conductor very interesting and it aroused my curiosity and i still can remember whenever i saw our student conductor take us for warm-ups and in some cases pieces, i actually for the first time in my life inspire that person in the position and i longed for the opportuinites to become one. It finally came to me too. I still remember clearly the moment when our band had an exchange programm with Saint Theresa Convent band and our combined band had to be separated into two bands in which a sec2 gets to conduct one of the band for a piece and i and another was chosen to take up the job. I was so happy and excited then my face just could not stop have smile. It was very tough and more complicated then i thought but i think i was able to take the challenge although with a few mistakes here and there and a lot of room for improvement. I felt actually a bit proud of myself after the whole thing ended and i think that was it, i found a thing which i could actually enjoy. So i proceeded to my last stage of my so called research. How can i achieve it?
I guessed that although it was a small dream and was just another step into my future, i wanted to take it as seriously as i can. I asked a few of my seniors about how i can be a student conductor and they said first of all my results had to be good together with my playing skills and obviously must be able to conduct a band well. I thought to myself, well my results is not that bad but i would definitedly have to study harder as i think my results now is not sufficient. For my playing skills, i think i am up to standard and was not that good or too lousy either, so i definitedly had to put in some effort and work for that area as well. For the last aspect of being a student conductor, i think i lacks a lot but i am determined to learn from my seniors and improve.
So that was the end of my small research and although it might not sound like it but i alone think that it was quite meaningful and fruitful to me. I could extract from my research that the road to my small dream would have lots of problem and i would have to have a strong mind and will to overcome those problems and achieve what i want. This would be just one of the stepping stones to my dreams and my future. I think my so called research for my dream has ended.
